I am incredibly lucky to work a job that allows me two days at home to write creatively. On those days, I always make time to write. I also catch up o household chores, work on Instagram content for my Jess Kitching Writes and Sisterhood Illustration, do the odd bits like emails and calls for my job, catch up with friends and so on.
Oh, and I also procrastinate.
I can’t help it – on a daily basis I wake up to well over 20 messages on various social media/networking/messaging apps. Such is the life of someone who has friends in different countries and different time zones. Every time my alarm goes off, it is like being handed a to-do list that’s already half an a4 page long. Getting through that and my other list of jobs is one thing, but then there is the prospect of sitting down at a another screen for the rest of the day and pouring your soul into writing something. Honestly, it’s hard to wrestle with.
I recently saw a quote that said ‘if you do what you love, then you will never procrastinate’.
I am here to say bullshit. BULL. SHIT.
I love writing. I do. I find it calming, intense, challenging, fun, difficult, fulfilling, heart breaking and so many other contradictory concepts. It is the one thing I want to do with my life.
But I still procrastinate. I still spend too long flicking through Instagram rather than sitting down and cracking on with it. I still wander aimlessly around the apartment and find about 10 other jobs that could wait but that I will do now rather than start.
I do have discipline. I do set myself goals and tick them off, and once I am at my desk I am fine, but getting to my desk is it’s own story.
To me though that whole routine says nothing about my love for writing or the project I am working on. Honestly, I could talk to you about it all day. To be a bestselling author is still my dream and something I can proudly say I am actively working on.
But I still procrastinate.
Sometimes I think we put this pressure on ourselves to be on the go 24/7. Rest isn’t a priority for us. We grow up being told ‘if you find a job you love then you’ll never work a day in your life’, but there will always, always be days where what you do feels like a hard slog. Life isn’t going to be picture perfect, motivational and aspirational all the time. Sometimes you need a rest. Sometimes you need to flick through social media and see what that girl from school is getting up to.
And do you know something? That’s okay!
We live in a world where people shame people for everything they do – how they look, how they dress, what they eat, where they work, what they believe. It’s exhausting! Don’t add an extra pressure to yourself. Procrastinate, my friend. You never know, switching your mind off might lead to that divine inspiration you’ve been searching for.
If you want to procrastinate by looking through my social media, follow me on Instagram at @jesskitchingwrites